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Facing down the storm... Author: Tom, Posted: Fri 06 Jun 2003 10:34 pm Subject: Facing down the storm... I am the son of Virginia McClaughry, Tom Rhodes, and I recently had an argument with her that resulted in me leaving. I decided I would go to Montana and continue with college and basically become a wog. About halfway through my trip I just decided I knew this wasn't the right thing to do and turned around and dropped the "need to know before you go", and I just knew. It was a very hard thing to do to turn around when I had lots of "logical reasons" not to. As I was driving back I started realizing I had been being an enemy to my mom, while shes basically the only true friend I had. She is honest with me, stands up for me, and won't put up with my case, and won't let me either. I had been using times when I thought she was "really wrong" as a big motivator, justifying all the overts I had done against her and justifying me leaving. So I decided then and there that these people are my true friends and that I would never be happy with anything short of making OT's and handling this planet. I would also do anything I could to help this group. I also realized the common denominator of all the agents is that they attack Virginia, and thats why I had trouble attacking them or spotting them, because I was on their side. Now I am 100% certain that they are agents and have my priorities right with my targets. After this all happened I felt much better and more up-tone, with a rise in responsibility and perception, and I keep noticing new stuff too now that I am back. On the way there it seemed to me that the world was ugly, but when I turned around and made up my mind as to what I wanted to do, everything was all pretty again . Like magic. Hopefully this post will encourage others out there who are to afraid to take that first step towards what they know is right, regardless of whatever logic they may have against it. All the money, success, drugs, women, etc will never make you happy. The only thing that will make you happy is going up-tone which entails rises in responsiblity and perception. You can try to cover up your perceptions and ignore your responsibility with not-isness or whatever you want, but that is the downward spiral into less and less happiness. Anyone who tries to tell you that you can be happy while being out-ethics, not able to perceive anything, and too weak to do anything is a liar, and a vicious one at that. The way out is the way through. Tom |
