ENTITIES OR THE CLEARING COURSE ? help me to cope
Author:
jwphoenix
Posted: Sat Dec 16 2000 10:06 am
dear folks,
I cognited and freed myself of the r6 in October.
I then built an e-meter. I then ran smack into entities even though it freaked me a bit, they kept reading like mad.
This was a three week no sleep period which is really a totally wow type of thing to occur. My tah dropped below two (no confront) for most of that duration.
I am an ex churchie and am tech trained, mostly when I fell foul of the authorities did I really cognite onto what the tech IS.! Plaese help.
I made a postulate (as clear as day) to all the entities, including myself that I would not do the clearing course as yet, (there is even a conflict on doing the clearing course (arbitrary?) due to anti - ron entheta entering the universe I choose to inhabit, and instead run inc. 1 to blow the entities that want to leave (they are like little playful children and are always having to be stopped from restimming my neighbours (its quite frank), and start the entire grades to educate (audit) the rest, there are thousands that have entered my domain seeking to be free all the way to the station and back. They are always having to be word cleared but they really want to be free of me, and basically gain identity.
I read a lot of Mr. Hilton's material concerning like the "What lack of my own beingness is that a substitute for? ect. They really helped me before the entities really wanted to be made known.
Anyway, as soon as I made the postulate to all set them free by auditing there was sudden calm and my space has been free of any shocks and startling jolts ect.. ect.... for the past two and 1/2 weeks. I feel belated but it has cost me my sanity a bit I feel. The responsibility is daunting The way out is the way through.
I feel that by running inc 1 I can undercut all the time track , implants, ect.. built upon since then. I am using the Pilot (very sad to see his non-involvement any-more) material to run incident 1 without much success. I ran a l1c and was unflat on grade 2 and a later one indicated grade 4 but I am constantly talking to arc broken entities who want to be handled. I've run inc 2 as well but am a very strict auditor, and record ta ect...
It was so calm that I thought that they had all gone, But upon checking, they are all there. I feel that operating in the higher dynamics (which I feel I constantly do ) of Individuality (grant entities beingness by making them their own ! instead of just blowing them off to god knows where is a much greater power base. Co-existence is next.
Well what to do, the l's to give me some whole track relief from overts and missed withhold (i loved them when I ran l10 once ie. blew charge off literally for days) then QUAD ruds (to handle the entities flow on flow 3 ect. and so handle the ruds of EVERYONE in one foul swoop, next the drug rundown (to handle my new compulsions to smoke ect.. then inc 1. then the entire grades of lrh mostly which I really want badly (even though I feel good) to really consolidate my power of awareness before OT (I really have cognited that the grades ARE THE MOST IMPORTANT CASE GAIN ONE CAN GET) and really make ot run smoothly.
To complicate this horrendously long posting, THe entities have made it known that I am being monitored and that they are being "bossed" around by evil entities. I know I really go on about entities (ie. you may feel that I grant them way to much beingness and thus power over my case) but on the meter none of us can lie. What about the clearing course which I want to do but am having reservations obout due to a possible "reprograming" with an lrh case to replace the old one!
If no-one answeres, thats fine. If someone wishes to say there say, let it be so. On the contrary, I carry on regardless.
I am NOT flat on the upper levels.
Author: Ed Rhett
Posted: Sun Dec 17 2000 10:23 pm
Scientology Grades are a 1 on 1 process. I doubt that you can successfully run any kind of personal services on a large group of beings. So you are logically left with the alternative of group processing.
I recommend that you talk to a school teacher to get practical advice on how to maintain order without the use of brutal Scientology "Ethics".
Then I would find a repair auditor to help you cope with with the restim.
Then I would find LRH's materials on group processing and do a lot of hours of that to your group for their benefit.
Then I would consider training them, but not before they agreed to cooperate as a group. Continue group processing until they can cooperate and gets good wins.
Then I would train them on TR's and the Auditor's Code.
Then I would train them on the grades. Anything less would be communicating into a mass of confusion.
All of the above is, unfortunately, purely hypothetical, because I have no experience similar to yours. This is just a wild guess based on common sense.
Good luck.
Ed Rhett
Author: Tom
Posted: Tues Dec 19 2000 12:30 am
Need help, no jokes please.
I was wondering. I ran some BTs the other day and my brother found some lumps on his body around the same time period, suspects that it's cancer. I'm real afraid that I did an overt act, because I even thought "go bother my brother" at one point in the session. He lives a hundred miles away.I love my brother, by the way.
question
can these things be related and what can I do?
Do BTs cause cancer? Iwphoenix, if you want to try to audit these things from where you stand feel free. Any serious input would be appreciated.
Author: Tom
Posted: Tues Dec 19 2000 03:48 pm
It's probably nothing. Besides it would take a while for cancer lumps to show up so it would be unrelated..
All that I did on the BTs was take a lot of charge off of one incident, but it was so much charge that I can tell you for sure now two weeks later that it is the most case gain from auditting that I have ever had. It was just too much charge to be carrying around.If nothing else, in the above post I got off a with hold.
Author: mike
Posted: Wed Dec 20 2000 04:56 am
Hi Tom,
I think the lumps are unrelated. However I think there is a lot to be explored in regards to havingness and cancer. You might try finding his havingness process and then running it on him. I think the reference is in Vol 3. If you can't find it let me know and I will dig it up for you.
Let me know how he is doing and give him my best wishes.
I acknowledge your withhold stated above and getting it off helped you. But!... I don't think it had any influence on him. You are not responsible for his condition, he is. But your compassion is great. I salute you for that, I see it so rarely these days.
Tom, please keep us posted on how he is doing and how you are doing.
ARC,
Mike
Author: paul matulef
Posted: Wed Dec 20 2000 06:04 am
Hi Tom,
This is just a thought, and not meant to
evaluate in any way. People tend to have
a closer connection with certain people in their lives and might feel an impression to contact them for many reasons.
For me the whole point of auditing and
spiritual development is to open up our
understanding and ability to communicate
with ourselves and others at higher and
more intimite levels without all the barriers
we place around our selves.
I personally have gotten overly caught up in
the "why" of events which gets me deeper
into a "figure-figure" type of thinking which
usually leads nowhere.
We all have difficult times in our lives which
may not have a definable "cause". It is comforting to be able to label something or
pin it down to an answer that we can understand, but I have found that if an answer in not immediately available, that trying to "find"
an answer, can lead to more dissapointment, blame and frustration.
I get fixated on the problem, or the "unknown" aspect of the answer which in turn can feed on
itself and lead one farther away from being able
to deal with the situation that is at hand.
For the moment, just be happy that you were there for your brother and appreciate your relationship with him.
Author: Tom
Posted: Wed Dec 20 2000 11:50 pm
Thanks
He could be just fine.Scared me though.
I remember once while on staff someone mentioned that their friend had cancer, and the reply by the staff wsa embarrasement that it was mentioned and lots of "no sympathy." Now I'm thinking, heck, the guy waas just hoping some OT might be able to do something. Nothig wrong with trying to find out more about something as unpredictable and uncontrollable as cancer. the old logic, if it can effect you, you can know about it.
Author: RedFred
Posted: Thur Dec 21 2000 07:45 am
Re: jwphoenix
I'd be interested in your opinion of FREE SOLO PROCESSING http://freesolo.homepage.dk/ It reads do-able but I'm not confronting it yet.
