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Sexual abuse, children, Scientology
From: ralph@xenologics.idiscover.co.uk (Ralph Hilton)
Subject: Sexual abuse, children, Scientology
Date: 1996/09/27
Message-ID: <324b4342.358879@news.idiscover.co.uk>#1/1
organization: Xenologics
newsgroups: alt.religion.scientology



I'm starting this as another thread because it doesn't belong
as a follow up. I've read the posts about Tony Strawn and his crime.
The CofS seem to have tried to cover it up which, if the posts
are true, I accept as wrong.
However, perhaps as an alternative viewpoint on Scientology I
have to tell my story.
I note that Scientologists, in posting to a.r.s. never talk
about themselves. They only talk about Scientology. I only hear very
generalized statements.  In my 5 months on a.r.s. Heidrun is the only
Scientologist I  have heard make a personal statement.
After I left the CofS I looked at all the "squirrel" groups.
From Werner Erhardt (EST) I learned about personal integrity in a way
that LRH never expressed in a way that I understood. I learned that
sharing one's own experience is far more meaningful than a
philosophical discourse.
Thus I respect people like Arianne and Stevea and many others
who have talked about themselves on a.r.s. far more than those who say
they have had wins from scn but say nothing real about themselves.
The first time I was abused was at the age of 9. An older boy
dragged me into a lavoratory  and sexually abused me. This went on for
a year, perhaps once a week.
Between the ages of 9 and 13 I was abused by various older
boys about 120 times.
I spent my teens in fear of sexual experience. I first had a
sexual relationship with a woman at the age of 25 having spent my
younger years in a feeling that I was some sort of despicable being
sexually.
I joined the Sea org at the age of 19 and went to the Apollo,
the HQ of Scientology at that time.
After quite a lot of auditing in Scientology I came to face my
experiences as a child. I learned to relate sexually to a woman and
share pleasure with her without the eternal shadow of that abuse. For
that change I have to thank LRH and Scientology because without him
and his work I don't think it would have occurred.


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Ralph Hilton